Me. Myself. I.

Today's a super tiring day.
It drawing in the morning.
Whiched i learnt shading/toning.
So stressed up making my proportions right.
Then it was break time.
Which i had this super big plate of hokkien mee.
I was like super full.
After that, it was mr ronalds,
opps,
it's Mr Richard's Life Skills.
Which i got compliment.
And also found out that i have a high Self Esteem
Which is good?
i suppose-.-
Later, a group of us went to pasir ris park.
there was,
Arret,
Din,
Wugang,
Shasha,
Nurul,
Carin,
Kristina,
Aj,
Effendy,
ilman
anddddd
ME.
It was boring at the begginning
but towards the end,
it's super fun.
We took lots and lots of photos.
I was hyped up.
we looked for crabs,
we tried to remove the branch from the tree,
we played cards,
and i tried to fly a kite with plastic bag-.-
It's an enjoyable day out.
The Sea Breeze is so Cooling.
Andd , how i wish you was there.

Posted by Fhoemographer at 11:59:00 PM

01 February 2010

thanks ah,
thanks for making my blood boil,
thanks for making me shout,
thanks for making me dislike you,
thanks for the misunderstandings.
Thanks for because of you, people would have misunderstaninngs.
thanks for because of you, i do not have the courage to talk to thoses people again.
thanks for because of you, you just ruined my day.
thanks for seeing this post and scolding me in front of the damn computer.
Just you, Thanks alot ah.
I REALLY appreciated what you have just done.
thanks for just not understanding me.
thanks for just triggering my rage and anger.

What am i now?
a Blood idiot?
a fucker?
a loser?
Stupid?
Nonsense sprouter?
You tell me which one.
Why the F should i practice dancing?
do you really think that i want to join that damn thing?
do you think that you can win?
well think again.
I hate dancing.
want dance dun know what is dance after school issit?
But wth?
During lesson time?
when it is the dateline,
for your damn work?
your brain made up of what?
Grass issit?
then too bad for you.
Bloody hell.
Shout shout shout.
I already said i coulden make it on the damn saturday already right?
now what can i do?
cancel the course?
u think easy issit?
i saturday not free already still want me dance?
u reach finals then tell me lah bodoh.
want challendge me music come lah.
Piano, Guitar, Violin lai,
i not scared.
I scared u hear until scared ah.
u heng i never kaobei you.
u heng i resisted.
if i was a sec 2 student now,
u would have been in a hospital asshole.
u think everyone in class likes you?
well think again.
even the teacher says that your attitude sucks.
cb, u wan vs me guai lan, wan vs me talk cock i play with you.
u cannot win me one sucker.
attitude problem? go anger management lah idiot.
lazy spend my time likethat.
what the F would those other girls think of me?
Wa Brandon, so fierce.
Wa Brandon, SUCKS lah,
Wa Brandon , Bully ah.
Wa brandon, i dun want to talk tho him le.
After i shouted?
_l_
Get out of the damn course you freaking idiot.
my life is better without you in in.

Posted by Fhoemographer at 11:43:00 PM

31 January 2010

While the Clock goes "Tick, Tok "
Every Hour, every minute, every Second.
Life comes and goes.
Time is precious,
for one would only have a limited number of days to live in this world.
Therefore concluding,
Spend your time wisely.
This is just random. I felt bored.


ANYWAY,
Life in School,
i can't say it's that's boring,
nor it's that fun.
quarrels came up only after 3 weeks of school.
But,i'm just being,
a bystander.
What do i mean to my classmates?
I wondered to myself.
Do they hate me?
Am i irrritating?
Is it better is i was not around?
There are many questions that i kept to myself.


BUT STILL,
I return to my Secondary School,
remembering the times i enjoyed there,
attending my previous cca as a primer.
i enjoyed myself.
i saw many new faces,
but i since it was a saturday,
i did not see you.
even if i did,
i would not even say hi.
i would just walk away,
As though nothing happened and we had not met before.
It was just like magic,
It was a night of 2008,
September 15.
i remembered it clearly.
i messaged you,
confessing,
and awaiting for a reply.
i was so scared,
i was panicking,
i was afraid that you would not give me the answer i want to hear.
i thought you might be wondering why,
why, did i like you.
why not choose other girls.
you may be thinking that there are much more people there i could choose from,
there were much more people that suits me.
but,
to me, you are the one and only.
i was happen when i recieved the message,
it was your reply,
you typed.
anything ?lol
the next day on, i strted messaging you now and then.
But our relationship lasted for, less then a week?
i agree that this was completly my fault.
i still did not have the courage to talk to you.
i did not meet you in the morning.
i did not even say hi.
but i remembered one day,
after school.
i was there,
at the field,
lying down,
looking at the clouds that went by.
we were with our friends,
but they did not know about it.
but it was a fun and stupid thing to do,
who would have a right mind to sit in the middle of the field,
cloud gazing.
it was super fun,
super cool.
on the day we broke up,
i was swimming in the pool,
i was crying.
i thought trew my mind,
am i forcing you into a relationship,
and the hurting you?
I really do not know.
i broke many of your promises.
remember the red dinosaur?
I was still wondering weather you still kept,
that 2 carebears i gave you,
one on valentines day,
one on your way to church.
remembering the first time i met you,
it was that time,
where you stepped on derricks foot,
and asked me for my name,
so you would write on it.
we met and gone to school together,
after i got your email adress.
i was shocked you stayed so near.
it's just a 2 minutes walk.
we went to school,
i remember the time you written on a postpad,
purple in colour,
writing brandonnnn plus a dinosaur.
and sticked it onto my back.
i remember when i taught you a few of my tricks.
we webcammed and i shown you some of them too.
If only,
there was a second chance.
i would take it.
and start all over again.
we could go to a park,
we could go shopping,
we could play frisbee,
we could go for star gazing,
we could play basketball together,
we could play badminton together,
we could play the piano together like that time,
i would play the guitar again and you colud sing along with me like that time,
i would hold you in my arms,
reassuring you.
i would do anything to make you happy.
i am lost for words.
there is nothing i could say,
if i am scared,
to do all these things.
there are so many things i wished i had said to you,
i wished that i could do with you,
i wished i could just do everything with you.
that may be impossible,
i may just be clinging onto false hope.
i may just be at the other end of the road.
i wished you would trust me.
im still,
in love with you,
NE NIX OOL EIMAJ

Posted by Fhoemographer at 6:29:00 PM

17 December 2009

I still think that LOVE is the greatest Birthday gift for me. I have a girl that i liked, Girl A. And 2 other girls have crushes on me. Girl B & Girl C. After girl A and i broke up, She found a new boyfriend. I decided to give up, but, it's too hard. I have no Feelings for Girl B and C. What should i do? If i would ask for 3 wishes, not using them to create more wishes, it would be,

1) Pass all my Examinations,

2) My Family is happy,

3) ***** Would tell me that she still likes me.

♥,3)

Posted by Fhoemographer at 5:29:00 PM

16 December 2009

Site Under Construction.

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